Couch Thoughts

What am I doing!?  I sit here dreaming about how there are so many things I want to accomplish in life and yet I'm still sitting an hour later after my "fantasy moment" is over. I watch movies about people going through the same thing as me and I watch them struggle towards accomplishing their goals.  WHY DON'T I DO THAT!? Why am I settling and waking up thinking, "this is it, I guess."  ?  I want something more!  Is that greedy?  The other day I told my mom, that I know I am meant for something better! I mean I don't want to make other people feel their life isn't important and what they do isn't good enough, because it is if that's what they want for themselves, but for me, I want MORE!  I give advice to people about chasing their dreams and sweat to get it, but I'm just a hippocrate.  What am I doing?  Sure am not sweating that's for sure.  I'm benched in my own life and I'm watching other people play in their court, when I am not putting any effort to get on mine. I need that motivation.  I'll tell you one thing though...if I wasn't $300 in my checking account, overdrawn on my credit card and wondering when my power is going to go out because I haven't paid my electric bill due a week ago, it would probably make myself a little more motivated.  Plus, I'm tired...so tired ALL THE TIME! I could probably sleep longer than sleeping beauty without the spindle.  (Is that the right story?) I feel like there is about to be a door opened right around the corner, but God is telling me I have to be ready for it or I am going to miss out.  He put me in Texas for a reason.  I truly believe the great job I have is not where I am meant to be, I think it's just what God used to get me here and it's getting me closer to where I need to be.  I feel it in my heart.  It's amazing, but I'm scared that I'm not going to be ready.  I know I have a fire inside me ready to explode any minute, but I'm holding it in because of, I dunno, fear?  I'm scared there will be a lot of rejection, hurt, and loss.  I'm really scared of this, but you know what....I've been hurt...quite a bit for a 24 year old I must say and I have been rejected and I have lost. I can do this.  I can take it.  I need to try.  I can't miss the door.  God is preparing me for something greater and I need to be ready to receive his blessing.  Okay, I guess I'll start with getting off the couch now. 

God Bless.

Loves.

Sam

Quick news

Starting to stress about a lot of things going on lately. On a positive not however I passed geology! WOOO! Now working on 2 more soc classes and then my minor is done! Wish me luck! :) Been busy with school at the new job which I LOVE! Emailed a woman who is a fashion stylist and waiting to hear back from her soon to talk about future goals and plans of fashion styling careers. So, pretty hectic summer, but I know one day it will all be worth it :)

Oh and P.S. woke up from a nap today not feeling my arm and thought it fell off and because I had fallen asleep on it for an hour and it was so heavy and I couldn't move it. It was one of the strangest things ever! :/

Have a wonderful week!

A passion for fashion

Okay so I have been extremely busy this summer! The dress is still on hold until I have the time to finish it. Hopefully I can get a sewing machine this year so they will start to move along much more quickly. haha Today I was in class and thinking about some new styles and I am really excited because I have a few new ideas that I think people will really like!

Anyways, these last few months have been hectic and a few new changes in my life as well. I can definitely tell that God is leading me in a new direction, one I should have realized years ago. Fashion. I'm really starting to realize how much I really love and enjoy it. It's a great way to express myself and who I am to other people. I'm not so much of a sewer, but I'm learning. My dreams of being a family therapist are still strong and I'm going to get there and succeed with that, but whose to say I can't have another passion in my life.

Other than clothes ;) things are going well. I applied for a new job/internship that would be a great experience for me. So, cross your fingers that I get it! One more glorious egg in my basket of busy, haha but it would be sooooo worth it!

Well, I'm off to work, then back to another LONG night of studying Geology :( MIZ. Thank God for coffee :)

Today I realized

Today I realized......

People are going to surprise you

When you hold on too tight, sometimes you lose your grip and fall. Find someone whose going to be there to catch you when you do

It's okay to let people leave

You need to trust yourself before you can trust anyone else

A car ride, windows down, 75 degrees, sunshine, and good music can change your attitude on life

Tomorrow is a new day

There is only so much you can do for someone until it's God's turn to do the rest. Let go and let God.

It's okay to be selfish sometimes, but don't forget to be selfless sometimes, too

One should judge themselves before they judge others.

I should probably learn to take my own advice

Friends are not always going to tell you what you want to hear, but it's what you need to hear. Thanks :)

It's okay to fight for what you want, as long as you're sure it's what you want before you fight for it

Sometimes it's better to think about what you have accomplished instead of what you want to accomplish in life in order to push toward your goals

Find someone that makes you fearless

Old Friends Are Like Gold

Christmas break back home was pretty laid back. It was nice to get most of the old high school group back together for the Nebraska game. It was even better having my bestie and her hubby and little angel there! Love you Joy! GO HUSKERS!